Waiting

March 19, 1981
The baby is due in one week. It won't be Heidi or Erik - it'll be either Benjamin or Rachel. I've been having contractions on and off for about a week. Saturday I was super energetic and I had lost weight so Su thought it would come Sunday. It didn't and that day was so hard for me I decided to forget about watching for signs and just let the baby come whenever it's ready.
Today the Dr said it had dropped even lower. I'm not sure I even want it to come before its due now. The days are so beautiful - it's only when I'm alone in the evening that I wish to be in the hospital. (Einar had evening meetings this week.)
Today Kirsten & I went with Mom to Vanvouver. Mom had to see an ear specialist and we went to Gold's yet (fabric store.) Kirsten was really good - except for begging Mom to sing constantly. I don't think Mom minded. Kirsten loves music and knows exactly which songs she wants us to sing.

March 20
Kirsten had a miserable night. She kept waking up and whining, and I tried everything - from changing her diaper to vicks on her tummy. She really sounded sick or scared, but I knew it wasn't a nightmare 'cause she didn't want to sleep in our bed. Finally about the fourth time I got up for her - near the middle of the night, I realized she had tried to take off her pajama top and had lifted one side up over her arm (with her arm still in the sleeve). It was awfully tight and her shoulder must have ached terribly! I felt so sorry for her! When I finally got her untangled, she went right back to sleep and is still sleeping now - half an hour after she usually wakes up. It's always, "I do it" when it comes to getting dressed and she's okay with bottoms but not tops yet.